i hate going for all these endless interviews! another one later on at 3pm. i'm really getting so sick and tired of all these..
this weekend is stayed home day! my niece came over on both sat and sun, so it's more family time together. she's getting so adorable each time i see her. lol.
this is the 2nd weekend without baby. one last one and he'll be coming back to me! :) super happy just thinking about it. another 11more days. YAY! i really miss my baby so much. he's leaving for outfield later and will only be back to his camp in taiwan on sat night. 6days without contact. but i'm okay la.. it will be over soon.
it's 3.56am and i'm still awake. gosh.. help me!  ¶ 12:50 PM 0 Comments

  15days the smell of cigarettes and coffee.. reminds me of baby..
i miss you so much. and i truly can feel, absence makes the heart grow fonder.
waiting for you to come back to me.  ¶ 9:03 AM 0 Comments

  i was reading blogs and going through some facebook accounts (including zab's). and came across all the pretty and creative photos and artworks. i've always have an interest in arts, but never have such great talent to produce work like those. or rather i should say, i've no talent at all. i've spent all the before-sleep time thinking about what i do best, and i couldn't think of any. especially at the this point of time, when i'm supposed to start plan my career path.
some interviewers had asked me, "why are you getting jobs in admin? i can see that you're a lively person and i don't think this is the kind of job for you.." then again, don't most of the people in this world work just for the sake of it, and probably didn't like what they do? and just dread going to work, and leading a mundane lifestyle..
i envy people who has the chance to go overseas, pursue after what they aim for in life, and being talented. they're so lucky to be able to expose to such a different environment compared to singapore, and there are so many so many much better opportunities out there. but being talented is a god's gift. it's like, you know what you can do with what you have/possessed, and you get your direction in life.
i don't have money, no talent. and i feel like i'm so lost. then again, i'm not exactly the kind of person who dare to take whatever opportunity that i get. i think alot, and then i'll start telling myself all the cons instead of pros, and give up in the end. i'm not an extremely ambitious person. to me, relationship is quite a big deal and i always think happily ever after. i'll rather choose to be with my love one, then sacrificing him for the other things (like career..) i mean i still will wanna work, but i'll always put his considerations before mine, then decide if this job is suitable for me. it will be like, if it's suitable to fit into his time, then it's for me. and sometimes, i just hate being like this. so i'm pretty much contradicting my whole life. i'm so lost. like what zab and me were discussing about, when it comes to relationship at this point of time when things are changing, when tough decisions have to be made, it seems more like a hindrance. i feel it at times too. i wanted to try out SIA interviews when they were still hiring, but becos he said no, i kinda gave it up. but i felt that this is the only job that i've an interest and passion in, but i can't do it.. it's so tough to even get in, but i haven't even try. i just can't let it died..
so lost so lost so lost..  ¶ 10:10 AM 0 Comments

  my baby is now in taiwan for his training. and i'm really missing him alot. only at times like this, then i realised i really do depend on him alot. is it a good or bad thing? he'll probably like it. lol. he likes me to be his PA, diverting his calls to me. there was this once when his campmate called him and he didn't picked up, so the call was diverted to me. i totally forgot about it too, so i was quite surprised that someone was looking for lionel, calling my no. haha. then i told him, "lionel is busy and not around now. may i know who are you?" then he said, "it's okay." baby called after that and told me that his campmate was super shocked that a girl answered the phone becos it was a weekday and they were all in camp. how was it possible that someone else picked up the phone?! lol it was funny.
but anyway, 19 more days to go. and it's really a long way to go. but we've endured through brunei. once taiwan is over, no more overseas training! so it's good.
ohh, and past few days, i fell sick. it was right after baby left. what an coincidence. my hero is not here to protect me. hahaha! but i'm recovering. feeling alot better from all the sleeps. i slept ALOT! since friday evening, i woke up awhile and slept again. woke up, sleep, woke up, sleep.. just like that, i wasted 2 whole days away. but i felt so weak, and miss baby even more..
wanted to watch S factor just now. but my stupid bro wanted to watch the campus superstar. i missed harper's island too! but lucky i can download that. okay finished download! BYE!  ¶ 9:43 AM 0 Comments

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