AMANDA/SU TIAN
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
argh!
i hate myself for..
-being so fat and not doing anything about it.
-allowing myself to gain so much in the first place, so i deserve being fat.
-always saying i wanna save money but i can't..
since the day baby and me got together, i gained a total of 6kg now. and i'm taking it so easily.. but i can't looking myself in the mirror or when i can't fit into pretty clothes. really frustrating. but i'm not doing anything! i still eat so much. like wtf, i know i totally deserve this. i wanna get those determination back from 5 years back.. i will never be below 50kg. i forsee myself to be a fat and ugly, and unglam auntie in the future.
that stupid boy, i asked him the other night, "baby, what do you love about me?" he said a few points that made me really happy. but the last point, totally destroyed everything. he said, "you used to have a quite hot figure.." wth. haha wanna bash him up after he said that.
I SWEAR IM GOING TO SAVE UP THIS TIME! ¶ 11:48 PM 0 Comments
-being so fat and not doing anything about it.
-allowing myself to gain so much in the first place, so i deserve being fat.
-always saying i wanna save money but i can't..
since the day baby and me got together, i gained a total of 6kg now. and i'm taking it so easily.. but i can't looking myself in the mirror or when i can't fit into pretty clothes. really frustrating. but i'm not doing anything! i still eat so much. like wtf, i know i totally deserve this. i wanna get those determination back from 5 years back.. i will never be below 50kg. i forsee myself to be a fat and ugly, and unglam auntie in the future.
that stupid boy, i asked him the other night, "baby, what do you love about me?" he said a few points that made me really happy. but the last point, totally destroyed everything. he said, "you used to have a quite hot figure.." wth. haha wanna bash him up after he said that.
I SWEAR IM GOING TO SAVE UP THIS TIME! ¶ 11:48 PM 0 Comments
Thursday, July 23, 2009
i neglected this space for LONG LONG TIME. hate blogging without pictures, cos it's so boring. but too bad, i don't have a camera now.
i finished Harper's Island. was rather exciting. the ending of every episode makes you wanna continue watching to find out more. which explained why i'm looking more like a panda now.. i sort of guessed who was the murderer and i got it right! haha. some of the killing scenes were gory, mostly bloody. but how Cal and Chloe died, made me cried. it was so sad.. really..
anyway, work has been really keeping me busy the past few days. one of my colleague left, and i've to take over his accounts. damn it. i've to freaking to do sales now. not in my job scope at all. but boss asked to do, cannot say no :( i've got totally no time to be surfing around as and when i like anymore.. i hope it will not caused me to hate my job? time passes by so quickly. i'm already working in this company for almost 3 months already! at least i'm happy that i've a job. so shouldn't complain ya :))
okay. shall update when i feel like it! tata!~ ¶ 12:13 AM 0 Comments
i finished Harper's Island. was rather exciting. the ending of every episode makes you wanna continue watching to find out more. which explained why i'm looking more like a panda now.. i sort of guessed who was the murderer and i got it right! haha. some of the killing scenes were gory, mostly bloody. but how Cal and Chloe died, made me cried. it was so sad.. really..
anyway, work has been really keeping me busy the past few days. one of my colleague left, and i've to take over his accounts. damn it. i've to freaking to do sales now. not in my job scope at all. but boss asked to do, cannot say no :( i've got totally no time to be surfing around as and when i like anymore.. i hope it will not caused me to hate my job? time passes by so quickly. i'm already working in this company for almost 3 months already! at least i'm happy that i've a job. so shouldn't complain ya :))
okay. shall update when i feel like it! tata!~ ¶ 12:13 AM 0 Comments
Monday, July 20, 2009
