Today, I was talking to my colleague about what happened between my family and sister, the drama that was going on, that caused us to fall out and became 'strangers'.
It's been 4-5months and my sister has not yet called once. I always think to myself, "How can someone be so heartless?", and wonder if she ever did thought about coming back home..
I miss my nieces so much :'( and all I can do is, stalk my sister's fb profile and steal photos of them and save in my phone. She deleted my bro and me off as friends, and locked up her profile. But her photos are still public, and I'm really hoping she wouldn't set it to private in the future. Becos this is the one and only way left for me to get updates of my nieces.
I've missed out so much from my niece's childhood, not being there when she learns how to speak in proper sentences etc. I will miss out on her first day of school too.. and my lil baby niece learning to walk and talk. I can't help but cry when all these thoughts came to mind. Who will understand what I'm going through? It's a pain that no one can help me to get rid of..
The argument was few weeks before my niece Shermaine's birthday and baby niece Corrine's Full month. I wanted to buy this cute pink pair of Crocs that I saw for her, but I won't have the chance to pass to her..

I don't feel sad that my sister and me aren't talking anymore. But my nieces are sweethearts that I'll do anything for, and they are so dear to me. Tell me what can I do! I always have the urge to call her, but I know she will never talk to me, or even allow me to see her daughters..
I know my parents and bro are going through the same thing, but we chose not to bring it up. Becos it hurts all of us so deeply.

Sigh.. I hope things will get better and in some ways, I'm able to see and carry them again.. Sweethearts, Yiyi misses both of you very very very much! :'(