I couldn't sleep last night, and it was a torture! Tossed and turned for hours, and falling asleep only at 5am.. and woke up at 8am. dead tired now.

My mind ran through so many random thoughts while trying to sleep. I keep thinking.. And seriously, i'm so unlucky in life, regardless of anything. Just pure bad luck. Nothing goes smoothly for me. For example, my career. I always don't get what I really wanna do/like doing, and end up with jobs that are willing to take me in. And of cos, I take them cos I do not wanna be penniless.
There was this period of time that I really wanna work in bank. Interviewed for 3 different banks and none called me back.
I've always wanted to be an air stewardess for SIA. And after trying for SO MANY COUNTLESS (not exactly la, i know how many times i tried la. LOL), the result is still....
I'm so sian right now. TELL ME WHAT TO DO!!!

I just want to do something i really like. Why is it so difficult?!!